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A letter to my Heart

A letter to my heart......








Dear Pumping little thing in me,

At this end of a beautiful time period of my life, I want nothing but express. Express how much I love you for making my joy double, express how much I hate you for beating stubbornly every time when I clearly banned you, for making me an emotional fool, same time making me the person I am proud of. Even this time I don’t even know is it me saying all these or you in me, saying all these.

They say na! Everything has its perfect time. Mine was these last years. Cause before that as much as I remember I was always under the safe cocoon of lovely people, who knows nothing but how to love. But then in these last years of my life I met so many people, talked with them, become friends, then fought, leave and again make friends. But in all these shits of life you remain constant, sometimes fooling me around in my own dreamland, sometimes making me see things as you want to see.

But today I want to tell you things, things you see but ignore, things you know deep down but choose to be blind, things you don’t want to hear, things you always want but never voiced it. Things you keep close to yourself, things you nurture as secrets.

Thinking of me in past, I do realize I was never been there, it was always you, I become a highly emotional person cause you take the role of thinking, I started thinking more than I should, even so much that it sometimes make me go rounds and rounds. And question myself that why I think so much?

Tell you the truth, people don’t even think those things worthy of even a thought of their, but you keep on holding into those issues, made me think also, even that is not enough, made me call upon the few unfortunate people who call them as my best buddies, to cry out all to them and made them either fool you out of the issue or solve it for you.

You cried out loud even on little little things, threaten me that you might break if something doesn’t go as you wish, but tell you the truth I have seen you pumping even in the darkest hour of life, giving the much needed hope, even when my analysis clearly knows that you are hopeless. Surely hope is the last thing ever lost. I have seen you shine, and tell you one thing I feel the happiest person ever when smile comes from you.

You can be the most stubborn thing when something comes on what you believe and what exactly is! Yes I agree most of the time it comes out true but there are some times where you should let me work. There are sometimes you are highly mistaken. A secret to relive, sometimes I too love to live in the illusion that you created around yourself. And I think that is where I went wrong. I should have stopped you from going far and far away that where illusions feel like real, and that is where I lost you.

I had seen you ache in pain, I had seen you crying and making new resolutions, I had seen you dance in joy even at the sight of slightest sight of hope. You truly amazed me that how can you be so foolish to live in a castle of illusions. Seeing you so much happy over nothing in particular make me wonder. Did I miss anything?

Knowing you for as long as of 22 years, this much I am sure of, going alone is not what you afraid of but going with someone who don’t care, break you the most.

So my little heart, there is something called direct talk, some words are there which has only one meaning. Like these something’s I know you knew as I know that you knew it. People can be mean to you, people can ignore you too. But the thing they can never ignore is a direct talk. So be brave enough to tell what you feel is right and is wrong. Cause at the end of universe it is only going to be You and Me.






Yours analysis machine


Mind !

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  1. Fermeen3028 April 2017 at 16:15

    Loved the letter from the mind to the heart, brilliant.

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  2. Srikant Nayak15 January 2022 at 06:31

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