Monsoon Rain - Chapter 4

chapter - 4

Sometimes it feels as if everything is pre-planned, no matter how much we tried or cried to make it otherwise. Everything takes its own time and place to happen.

Today Raizadas will come to see me for their elder son, for him...

I never thought that I would ever meet him again in life. But life has planned something different for me; first I met him after so many years such unexpectedly, then again today!

But things have changed quite rapidly and in a way that I never thought will ever happen in my life.

He must be known that it is me for whom he is coming to see. Of course he must have known, it is not like any daily serial or like that. He must have agreed to it then only his family is coming to see me today.

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Arnav’s POV....

My family must have reached at her place by now. I choose to not go saying that I know her very well as she was my batch-mate back in college and if everything turns out in positive then my answer will be ‘yes’.

There is actually no reason for me to say ‘No’ to her. I have to marry someone then why not her. She is the one whom I knew very well. She is ambitious, simple and an innocent girl, who once upon a time has a huge crush on me and has proposed me also.

But then I have never said ‘yes’ to her either.

It might feel like I am converting the whole scenario in my favour. And somewhat it is true also. As much as I know about her, she will be best for a lifelong companion. She has made me comfortable with her even after I rejected her; we shared a comfortable friendship too after that. But with busy life and in the race of career when I realised that she has almost vanished from my life it was too late and I has lost all contacts. It was not like I can’t retrieve her contacts, but then I never give a second thought to it and move on with my life.

I may sound selfish, that I still thinking about my comfort not about her. The girl I know is her, will say  ‘yes’ to the marriage without any second thought. But then long time has passed. I still don’t know why exactly she has stopped contacting me. Did she has a change of heart or might have found someone better than me. I don’t know what exactly it is and that is the reason I don’t want to go there and influence her decision anyway possible.

Whatever will be her decision will decide the future of this marriage.

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“so, what you think about this proposal”

Sujata didi’s(sister) voice broke my revive, actually I was expecting that sooner or later someone surely come to ask me this question.

The Raizadas has left a long time ago. They are all nice people. My family seems like them much too. As much as I know my family they would expect a positive answer. Even there are no reasons to say “no”. Raizadas belongs to most reputed families of Kolkata. All the members are so sweet, and the most important is they are his family.

If only he had come today, I might have able to come to a conclusion.

“but didi (sister), they haven’t given positive signal either, then where comes the question of my opinion.”

I tried to avoid the topic as much as possible. It is very difficult to hide anything from didi, and this one fact of my life that I have kept secret till now, don’t even have the mind to reveal either.

You can say this is because I was rejected at the first time. But I would rather say that am not afraid of rejection. If it was the cause then probably I wouldn’t have dare to love him till now.

Yes! I was rejected, but then it was his decision. But loving him is my decision. He said he doesn’t like me in that way, but that doesn’t mean I don’t like him. I choose to stop trying, cause life has become a constant battle for me between, “if you miss him, text him.” And “if he misses you, he’d have already texted.”

And somewhere even my heart wants to believe otherwise, I choose my brain over it. And life goes on.

Today as everything is happening as I ever wished for, Nobody knows that, I had never a choice, it was always him, and will always be. But the question is upon him. And whatever be the decision of his, the fate of this marriage depends on that.

“Khushi, sometimes you know, your talks scare me a lot. What happened to that carefree sister of mine, sometimes seeing you like this feels like as if you have grown up so suddenly and so soon. They said “yes” to the marriage and that is why I am here to ask about your opinion. Don’t think about family, I will manage them, in case you don’t want to go with this.”

The only word that got registered in my brain is “yes”. He said “yes” to this marriage. Did he really?

“Sure?, I mean are they sure?”

“What type of question is this Khushi, of course they would be sure; now tell me what you feel?”

The goofy smile of my face, the little dance of happiness to the tune of outside monsoon answered it all to my sister.

And after a long time I felt something, that I never realise would be the thing that I am missing.  Same anticipation and same hope to see him every day. Somewhere I was really used to that feeling.

May be this Monsoon really has something different to it.